Kip and I have been married for 4 years. It's funny how you plan your life in your head as you are growing up. I remember my plans...graduate college at 22, get married and start a family by 23 or 24. I just thought that's what you did after college. Well, I ended up getting married at 24 but having a child right away just didn't fit into my plans. I was busy working, hanging out with my friends, and enjoying time with my hubby.
Now that I am 29 years old I think it's about time to have a baby. We tried some last year and then I panicked and decided I wasn't ready so we stopped trying. I was asked to be a bridesmaid in my good friend, Jeanne's, wedding and one of the rules was no pregnant girls :). Plus, I am an event planner so I PLAN (too much sometimes) and I knew which month would be best for work to dodge our many events. Kip said we were never going to have a child because I was always scheduling everything.
In the spring, Kip's cousin, Ben, and his wife, Mandi, shared the news of their pregnancy. She is due on Jan. 11. Kip and Ben's moms were twin sisters and were pregnant with the boys at the same time. Mandi and I always thought it would be fun to be pregnant together because our husbands are basically like brothers and we are like sisters. I was so excited to hear that she was pregnant!! We went shopping at Target the night she told me and of course I am helping with her shower...I can't wait to meet her little girl. Although I was extremely happy for them, I wasn't sure we would actually get to be pregnant at the same time like we had planned.
Our summer was completely packed this year...Kip took several trips to shoot at ASA Archery Tournaments...he went to Kentucky, Illinois, and Alabama (to name a few). We also went to the beach together and I went to Nashville twice (once with mom and once for Jeanne's Bachelorette Party). So, needless to say, we had a busy summer...but, that's how we planned it. We knew this could be our last summer as just a married couple with no children.
I knew exactly when I wanted to start trying to have a baby. I wouldn't be so far along if it happened that I would be showing at Jeanne's wedding on Sept. 22 and I could do an event at work I had always wanted to do in April. I believe God has a plan for your life and everything happens in his timing. Last summer we tried for 3 months with ovulation predictors and everything. This summer, we tried for 1 month. I had a calendar to help me pinpoint the days we needed to try but didn't use any tests or anything.
This past Saturday I worked all day (a giving society event followed by a football game). I knew it was a few days before I could be sure I was pregnant but once I got home I thought I would take a test just to see. My back had been hurting and I had a few other small symptoms but they are usually monthly symptoms as well. I took a test and WOW it looked like a light blue plus sign!! I kept calm, I didn't tell Kip...I would take another one in the morning and see what it showed. The next morning...an even darker plus sign! Am I really pregnant? Did it really happen this fast? I couldn't believe it. I still didn't tell anyone. Then, after cheerleading practice on Monday night (the night before this blog post) I took another one (you have to be absolutely sure) and this time there was nothing "faint" or "light" about the plus sign. I think it finally hit me...I was going to be a mom.
I laid in bed last night thinking about the timeline and when I should tell people. I am TERRIBLE at hiding things about my life. According to all of the calculators online my due date is May 20, 2013. So, I am 4 weeks along. I want so bad to just tell Kip and my parents but I am also terrified of miscarrying after telling everyone and I don't want to put pressure on anyone else to keep the secret for another 4-8 weeks. So, I decided to start blogging and eventually I will share this blog with others. It is a nice outlet to share what is going on and hopefully one day our child can look back on it and learn about their birth story.
I don't know when I will tell people... Jeanne's wedding is next week and somehow I have to pretend to drink all weekend or everyone will suspect that something is up. Maybe I will tell Kip before that so that he can help me order fake drinks but he will be with mom and he is terrible at hiding things too so I don't want anything to slip out. Ahhh.... so much to think about. How can I keep this secret!? I don't know if I can...all I know is....
I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!
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